|Not me... but probably|
something close to what I looked like
A few months later I moved and with my roommates started the South Beach diet. There was some weight loss there. Eventually, I got the job I wanted and moved into an area where the local community was THIN. Obesity was nearly non-existent around me. I was pedestrian, so I walked a lot more, the food was healthier, etc... so I got to around 200 pounds. At least 50 lbs gone from my HW. Since then, I've gone between +10 or -10 for a few years. I used my schedule as an excuse not to exercise, and I went out drinking with my clients and co-workers a lot so... I just stayed in that zone, but that alone was an accomplishment, so I'm not really disappointed in my past self. I lost a significant amount of weight and didn't regain it like so many other people do.
|This is the sort of thing|
I had wanted to wear
I read in a pro-ana blog that I love, because she doesn't glorify it she just talks about her experience, that the point is to flirt with that line that keeps you a "walking skeleton" without incapacitating yourself, and I thought that was a good point. If anorexia is going to be viewed as a life style choice that at least some individuals have control over, than it should be possible for those individuals to draw a line, and walk right along it without crossing over. But my question is, where is that line? and is it the same for everyone?
|this is not my idea of |
beauty... (and yeah, I know
it isn't real)
Basically, I don't actually want to be a "walking skeleton", so I don't think I'll ever be anorexic... Because I do believe that Anorexia could be both a compulsively developed ED and a choice for someone who already has issues with eating... But for now some of the things anorexics do to walk that dangerous line will be helpful to people like me who want to walk a far less dangerous, but extremely limiting line... and I think I will fit more into the category that can use methods the pro-ana community shares with each other in a less extreme, but still effective way.