"Sickly Thin"

One of the things that makes me sad looking back at this journal is how different my concept of ideal body shape has become. I know it isn't attractive, I know it isn't healthy... but I want to waste as little space as possible... and so, the images below are more accurate to what I aspire to become than many of those I have posted before. Some are a bit extreme, like the first one of the girl who can literally wrap both her hands around her thigh. I don't feel a need to go that far (yet), but I don't find it hard to look at, or negative... which definitely shows a shift in my perception.

Random (unweightloss related!!!) thoughts

A little whimsical thinspo for ya'll since at least something has to be pretty/relevant to the blog in this post eh?

Changed comments so that they have to be approved to be posted on the site. This isn't b/c I really mind if someone offensive is said to me. I will probably still post it so long as it is at least slightly intelligent. It is b/c that way, if you want to say something just to me, but not to the world you can. Just let me know if you DONT want me to publish it publicly, mkay?

And... idk, I'm weird and actually look at the stats for the hits i get on a nearly daily basis. Today, one of the search terms that brought someone to the blog was "I'm fasting, should I take potassium?" Made me smile for some reason =] Just in case that person comes back... The answer is if it's an extended fast and you're still being active, you probably should. If it's short and you're not sweating a lot, you probably don't NEED to, but it still wouldn't hurt as long as you space it out.

It's nice to think that maybe there is SOME actually helpful (rather than harmful) information to be found here... anyway... Peace Out lovelies. Gonna try to sleep another hour before exercising.

(Note: couldn't get back to sleep so added this...) Oh. Also... if you are in the US and have the opportunity to do so... Please participate in kiss more chicks day! I am not a lesbian... but the national 'chick filet day' made me want to vomit... and not b/c their food is FUCKING DISGUSTING. The sad thing is I think most of the people I saw participating in it probably didn't even know what the real issue was... though who can blame them, lots of news reports on the topic are failing to cover the whole story. It isn't just that Cathy has bigoted thoughts... if that was all it was, then whatever. I'd actually be all for the gesture on Wednesday if it were truly about freedom of thought and speech, even if it's protecting the freedom to have really dumb opinions... but it isn't just about that. Cathy has donated MILLIONS of dollars to anti-LGBT rights groups.


at least the LA times had the decency to point to this report... (a few others did too... but this was the most unbiased source I could find that actually pointed to the donation issue...)

I've posted about similar things before... (Gold's Gym specifically)  and well... in summary here's my thought on the matter of personal freedom... you are free to do whatever you please and think whatever you want so long as it doesn't infringe on another person's freedom to do the same goddamned thing. i.e. you want to be a bigot and bitch about traditional family values - fine. You want to use your money and influence to block another person's civil rights... NOT OK.

Two things I'd like to ask those who believe in the anti-gay marriage movement... they are kinda related but...

1. How does it hurt you/your faith if someone else does something that contradicts it?
2. Is forcing someone to do the 'biblically correct' thing really moral/right in gods eyes? Aren't we supposed to be BEYOND the age of law? I thought the whole POINT of Christ's coming and going and coming again was to eradicate the law, and make religion/holiness accessible on the INDIVIDUAL level. if you take away the choice to do what is 'right', does that really count?

btw... Comparative Religion was one of my majors... So I'm not just talking out of my ass here...

/rant off.

Aleksandra Wydrych

Someone in the community I frequent found these, and made a thread called "TOBF's favorite" (TOBF = my un on the forums in case you didn't see the connection with the title of the blog). If I ever meet this girl (the one on the forums) irl, I will do something wonderful for her in gratitude. I'm not sure what lol... maybe bring her some nice things from Japan as I have friends there and she loves the culture... Anyway... It's been a while, and the model needs more exposure because she truly is perfect in every way.

I have over 100 images of her... so here is just a spattering of them. All red haired, though there are some where she is blond or dark haired as well.

Size 4

This is actually where I think I want to be... well, if I can look like them anyway! they are all outfits I could see myself wanting for fall this year :3 or at least parts of them.

love this skirt!

I think this is my favorite of all

Size 0

Well, at least these are images that came up when I typed it in google... i wonder if I ever could even get that small...