Thursday was... idk, not great. It started out well, but by the end of it I was panicking about getting in my 2500 calories... I managed though, but I'm not to happy about it...
Pilates *KICKED* my ass (literally, and inner/outer thighs) today, which was awesome. The best part was when my instructor told me to do something, and I guffawed because I thought there was no way I could... and then I did, 5 times each side!
On my way from the lesson to work I nearly passed out a few times... I'd like to think it was because of the workout because I did eat before and after it... and a fair amount of cals/carbs/protien too so... it shouldn't be food related. Upon reflection I think it was diet-pill/caffeine related though, because my diet pills have a lot of caffeine in them (3 cups of coffee worth per serving, though I only take 2/3s of a serving atm), and I didn't remember to take them today... and when I had some Mate tea, and later on an energy drink, I felt a LOT better.
Now... I'm not concerned about caffeine in and of itself, because in moderation (and 2-3 cups of coffee isn't horrible...) it actually has a lot of health benefits associated with it... BUT, not being able to function without it is a problem... and that probably is food related... bleh. I won't stop though, not until the Master Cleanse Ease-In anyway... cuz I do want to do that 100% correct... and afterward... we'll see. Caffeine addiction >>>>>> being fat any day so... whatever.
Felt pretty good about food today too... it was a highish calorie day... 840, but I was able to finish off all the perishable food from the high-cal week, and it felt good to be simplifying my food and stuff again. Not having all that extra flavoring/sauce for dinner/lunch was a big relief. Also, I'm pretty psyched about this next week because daily plan is to be between 435~500 calories a day. I'm going to try and stay at the 435 mark as many days as possible, but if I get UBER tired I will have another small shake. A big change this time around is to not eat any bran in the morning because I want to see how that changes how I feel through-out the day to again... start preparing for the MC.
What else was good...? Hm, ah. Despite the small loss, I felt as if I looked visibly smaller so I checked my waist and I lost .5 inches this last week.
The problems with today came when I went home from work. I had to stay late because I closed alone, and had to get the store ready for tomorrow... so that cut into exercise time. AND THEN, when i was in my car, and went to look for my little insta-read thingy that gives me an idea of where I'm at for steps/calories burned/etc I couldn't find it... so went back into the store... couldn't find it (though I was rushing b/c I didn't want to run out of time to work out) and then ran back to the car deciding that it MUST be in there... BUT IT ISN'T. And, I know I was wearing it when I went into work but I had to change clothing so.. idk where it is :( Must be somewhere in the backroom/bathroom but... ugh So, I got home with only 40 minutes to spare and no idea how much I needed to do PLUS this is the day I add another interval to my workout...
I decided to waste a few minutes to go upstairs and plug my armband in and see where I was at. 250 calories left (achievable in 30 minutes generally...) 3000 ish steps. So, I got my shows on, ran downstairs and cut out one of the 3mph minutes per interval (so... 4mph > 5 mph > 4 mph > 3 mph) to make sure I got all 7 in... and I did it, but felt like a schmuck the whole time... kept on thinking "this is what I get for thinking I was smaller and being happy... now I can't even be sure if I'll make it on time... stupid stupid..." so... Yeah, that's where the day turned bad emotionally...
I'm very anxious about finding it... and rather pissed that I have to go into my place of employ tomorrow even though i have 4 days off in a row... I was so looking forward to not seeing the place for that long, but I cannot survive without that device for that long....
(I did find it :D more on that in a few minutes).
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