Told myself last month that as long as I don't try to do this more than 2x a month I'm ok with it... results are so shit anyway that it really isn't worth it... and so long as I stay at that limit or below I doubt I'll ever get good enough at it for it to be so... just going to do my best to stick with restricting. Bulimia is so unappealing anyway... I never want to turn to that 100%. AN B/P Subtype wouldn't be *so* bad, but restriction subtype > all.... so time to get in gear fatass...
Been going over calories nearly every day by at least 200 (so 700-800 instead of 500-600). If I can't get myself back in the swing of <600 by Thursday I think I'll plan up to 800 now even though it's early... better to plan, and eat safe things than not and eat shit. *sigh* maybe after a week of 800 I'll be strong enough to go down lower again, depending on where weight is...
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I used to work at one of the hospitals in my town. One of the fun things I had to do was take bodies of DOA down to the morgue. Too many young people. Two things I will never do again because of that job: 1.ride on a motorcycle, and 2.self-induced vomiting.
Being thin as a blade slicing through the air is a wonderful thing, but it all counts for nothing if you aren't around to enjoy the weightlessness. be safe ... people care about you more than you may realise. {patti}
{this one is meant to be private, but if you need to publish it, that's ok} Right after I made my last comment, I thought "Oh crap, I'm coming off like some interfering condescending preachy old biddy" but I couldn't see how to erase it. Anyway, I apologise -- I've no right to go about telling other people how to run their lives, especially an -adult- who is obviously intelligent and educated. Instead I'll just say "rooting for you, and wishing you all the best". {patti}
I guess I never really thought about it going down the drain either.... I just assumed it would. Good to know though. Im actually disgusted by the thought of purging in a toilet, and the sink doesnt give me the option of bending over really..... so I end up using a trashcan w/plastic bag in it. Still gross but better I guess. Do you feel like you are binging more often? Or maybe it just feels like more since you have started purging.... I really don't want you to fall into a cycle :(
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