Day 1 - Ease In

So... this is copied and pasted from another journal.... Read below and you'll understand why, but basically, I need to limit my internet time so I'm not sure if any of my journals will really have content spesific to them other than replies to people's comments for a while... Oh Well!!

Blue will indicate a comment I've added in while editing to make sure it makes sense... so at least that will be new lol >.<

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Time management, I think, will be the biggest challenge for me during this cleanse... specifically the timing of the SWF. So... Today I've solidified a plan because... well, I spend about 11 hrs a day at work/commuting between work and home... which only leaves 5 waking hours if I want to properly sleep 8, which I think I should at least give myself the chance to do while on the MC.... so I need to make sure I'm doing everything right.

My biggest time sinks are the internet and exercise. Of the two, only the internet can really be cut back on SO.... my plan as follows:

9:50 PM - Senna Tea
10 pm - bed
6 am - wake and drink SWF
6-7am internet time/wait for SWF
7-7:45 or 8 - walk
8 am- First glass of lemonade/leave for work if I am opening.
11am - 2nd glass
2 pm - 3rd glass
5 pm - 4th glass
8 pm - 5th glass

*6th glass will be drank during commute back home to help me stay awake. I always get sleepy when I drive D:
*My goal is to have a daily deficit of 1500 calories, I cannot be on the internet or engage in any other leisure activity I like until I've met that goal.
*I will spend lunch breaks walking to help meet the goal :P

So... from now on, in the morning, I will update how the previous day went. In that vein!

Ease in Day 1

Breakfast:

* 156.0 Grams Apple 81c
* 165.0 Grams Blackberries 71c
* 56.0 Grams Rawganic Sun-Flax Raisin "Bread" 105c
Total: 257c

After AM workout:

* 85.0 Grams DOLE Baby Spinach Leaves 20c
* 85.0 Grams Kiwi Fruit 52c
Total: 72c

Lunch:

* 180.0 Grams Broccoli 61c
* 175.0 Grams Carrots, Baby 61c
* 60.0 Grams DOLE Baby Spinach Leaves 14c
* 118.0 Grams Tomato, Cherry, Fresh 21c
Total: 158



Pre-Workout Snack:

* 20.0 Grams Onions, Red, Sliced 8c
* 90.0 Grams Pepper, Bell or Sweet 13c
* 91.0 Grams Rawganic Sun-Flax Raisin "Bread" 171c
* 64.0 Grams Tomato, Cherry, Fresh 12c
Total: 204

Dinner:

* 125.0 Grams Broccoli 43c
* 131.0 Grams Cauliflower, Chopped 33c
* 77.0 Grams DOLE Baby Spinach Leaves 18c
* 51.0 Grams Onions, Red, Sliced 21c
* 155.0 Grams Pepper, Bell or Sweet 22c
* 88.0 Grams Tomato, Cherry, Fresh 16c
Total: 153

Day's Total in: 843
Total out: 2453
Deficit: 1609

Not bad... I could have saved myself some major grief on the treadmill at night if I hadn't had the damned rawganic bread replacement thingy, but I was curious (it was good... tasted like buttered raisin toast...). Sometimes I think "it would be cool to be vegan/raw." and since I was in a health-food store to get all that stuff AND it is technically a living food, which is what the first day is all about... all raw living foods, I figured eating just one serving (the one I had at breakfast) wouldn't be bad. Of course... throughout the day, as I went shopping for other supplies at a proper whole foods market and stuff, the fact that today was my last day of solids for a while, and that I'd have to throw out the other serving wore on the COE part of my brain... so I rationalized another 105 calories....

Which would have been fine! Not ideal, but fine... BUT, the package was wrong about how many servings were in there... It is supposed to only have 4 oz total but it had more than 5! WTF. And... I couldn't bring myself to throwing it away, so I ate it too. *fatass*

Now... idk if the MC really works... like, if it really peels away at layers of scum and toxins in your body... but it will certainly peel away at some of the waste (fat)... and even if it doesn't do all of the other cleansing things it's supposed to... I want to use it as a way to cleanse my mind of stupid habits. I hope that it will be a time of introspection... if I can lose some weight and some things that weigh me down mentally, it will be a major success... so... Lesson one....

EATING SOMETHING YOU DON'T NEED IS JUST AS WASTEFUL AS THROWING IT OUT.... AND more shameful, because it will show for the world to see.

I mean, seriously... idk how many of you feel this way, but if it's on my plate... I have always felt obligated to finish it because it's "wasteful" to throw it out... but if it's more than your body needs... how is that not a waste as well? I remember my ex one said when he was a kid his parents told him to finish his meal b/c there were starving kids in Africa, and he replied "Then send them my leftovers!" So true! Me being a pig and eating the excess food doesn't help anyone at all. WASTE.

So... Objective #1 is to stop being a gluttonous, wasteful person... Prepare/buy only what I need and will use within the allotted time... and leave the rest behind!

In other fronts... I told my mother I was doing this and she kinda flipped. But I talked her down from it, and it's ok. However, I think it will limit my length to (max) 14 days b/c while I think I could sneak in another 4... adding another week to that would certainly not go unnoticed. Ah well... let's get through 10 first, eh?

Also... I want to spend at least 1 hr studying each day... and 30min-1hr cleaning my life out of physical clutter too... Let this be 2 weeks of self-improvement and simplification!

week 18 weigh in and summary

Well... plateau seems to be over for now. Thank goodness.


Overall Weight: 150.6 (-2.8 lbs)
BF%: 23.4 (-2.65 lbs)
Muscle Weight: 51.1 (.4 gain)

It would have been so cool to have a loss large enough to break into a new decade but that's ok! Mini goals for MC....

• be 149.8 before first day of lemonade (-.2 lbs per day is doable, right?)
• be <145 by end of ease out (13-17 days to lose 5 lbs is doable, right?)

will post summary if intake/burn later.

Love you all :D

Lead up to Master Cleanse (Ease in Plans... and jitters)

So... Friday is it! Friday I start my ease in, and a 16 (potentially 20) day journey to... idk... different eating I guess? I'm not sure how I feel about it... I hate hate hate the idea of laxing every day... but I'll do it. I am scared that so many carbs will cause a gain (a big one...) but I'm going to try it. This is my biggest fear... the inspiration to try this is that girl who went from 30% to 12% BF in 40 days... but she probably ate like a normal person before the cleanse... you know, grains and stuff?

I don't. My body is generally in a constant state of mild ketosis... and well, the loss slow down is probably b/c my body is used to what I've been doing, so on that front I think this cleanse will be great... b/c it will really change up what's going into my system, but on the other hand... sugars.... so much sugar... but... well, I'm going to do it at least 10 days baring a huge gain (like 4 lbs?) after the first 5 days... (omg if I gain that much idk what I'll do).

Anyway... here is my plan. It is 66% following the rules... maybe more. The only place I am failing is that i don't have the money for a juicer, so day 2 will be maybe a 50% compliance.

Day 1:
800-1000 calories of veg/fruits. Not sure exactly of how much of what I'll have but I'm thinking something along the lines of...

exact numbers will be unknown until I actually buy stuff (tomorrow morning). I am going to try and get as much of this pre-cut/washed etc as I can... so like, party platters and all. Less work = better


Day 2:

I don't have a juicer, or the money for one. SOOO I'll be drinking 3-4 bottles of Naked 100% Juice Smoothies diluted with water. I know that it isn't fresh, and therefore isn't as good, but it's liquid... and plant based, so it's gotta be *alright* evne if it isn't idea.

Day 3: 2 liters of fresh squeezed OJ. Not sure how many oranges that will take :(

All of these should be <1200.... most are < 1000

Another thing with MC... not sure what to do for exercise or how much of a calore deficit I should allow... perhaps play it by ear? hmmm....

water (and sobe life water 0) fast

Today is my first day off in a while. It hasn't been a great one... I was supposed to hear back from a job interview last week and didn't so I called today just to find out that the person in charge is on vacation all week... it's just frustrating. That + the low losses lately has got me down, so here I am... with only 10 hrs left to the day and I still haven't eaten (b/c I still haven't gotten out of bed) and you know what... I'm not going to! Water and 0 cal vitamin supplemented drinks only today!

All 2500 calories I burn today will be coming from my body... and while I'd rather not lose any muscle this week, if I lose a little today fuck it. I'm not eating because if I don't lose at least 2 lbs this week I'm going to freak... and today alone should be very close to one if the math actually really means anything!

Time to go for a 3 mile walk... then I'll do pilates, study, and do another walk later this evening. I won't try to run if I'm not feeling up to it b/c of the fast, but the steps/calories will be in place. If I can do it on nothing I can certainly pull it off during MC too! As for MC workout plans... I'm thinking however long I need to walk to get my steps in (probably 90-120 minutes) + 4~6x 5 minute HIIT throughout the day so that I still get some vigorous exercise in, but not too much at once. boyah! I will break out of this plateau.

BOGO - one for now... one for the future

NY&C Is having a bogo 75% sale on jeans atm. I got two pair... one size 8 (current size) one size 4 (goal size atm...)

I generally don't like to buy sizes in advanced like that... it's never been a source of motivation for me. BUT, I've never lost 55 lbs before either.... so fuck it.... it's something to strive for. Something to hang up on my door and every day look at and say... "I will be there, it doesn't matter what it takes."

I'm not sure if size 4 will be enough.... but it can be enough for now. Being on the verge of XS/S vs L/XL will be a huge accomplishment... and even though the mirror shows a fat person to me still, and probably will even 2 sizes from now... Stats like that don't lie, and hopefully it can help me feel like I've actually done something.

I felt pretty shit today. Couldn't jog... but I walked enough to get my steps and calories in, so I'm not disappointed. I figure it's a good example of how I should handle working out during the master cleanse anyway... which starts Friday (Ease In...)

Nervous!